Quick note. My daughter wrote a suicide note and gave me a handful of razor blades. I guess she is a cutter but was hiding it. She was also hiding drinking and
taking way too many pils. I am really lucky she didn't OD. So I put her in the psych hospital twice, then in day treatment. She missed three months of
school. She passed all her classes except one. That means now we have to do summer school.
I can't even tell you how many nights I spent awake all night...checking her pulse and listening to her cry through the bedroom door. She locked herself in her closet...threatened to jump out her window etc. I watched her lay on the sidewalk at the hospital for three hours banging her head on the concrete because she had a reaction to zoloft and ER was super busy.
On her 15th B day she was riding in the ambulance..back to the psych hospital on suicide precautions. It was the only way to keep her safe. Some mornings, I came home in the AM wondering if I would find her on the front lawn dead. Awful..We went and bought big stee cabinets and little lock boxes. I had to lock up everything sharp and all the log cords and any rope. There wasn't even a safety pin left out. She said she couldn't cut with cuticle scissors..well she could and did.
This all came a month after a family friend tried to committ suicide. He slit his wrist and tried to OD. They saved him. This time.
We are doing better now though. It's a slow process but the meds have her a little more stable. Makes U think about what is really important in your life.
I can't even tell you how many nights I spent awake all night...checking her pulse and listening to her cry through the bedroom door. She locked herself in her closet...threatened to jump out her window etc. I watched her lay on the sidewalk at the hospital for three hours banging her head on the concrete because she had a reaction to zoloft and ER was super busy.
On her 15th B day she was riding in the ambulance..back to the psych hospital on suicide precautions. It was the only way to keep her safe. Some mornings, I came home in the AM wondering if I would find her on the front lawn dead. Awful..We went and bought big stee cabinets and little lock boxes. I had to lock up everything sharp and all the log cords and any rope. There wasn't even a safety pin left out. She said she couldn't cut with cuticle scissors..well she could and did.
This all came a month after a family friend tried to committ suicide. He slit his wrist and tried to OD. They saved him. This time.
We are doing better now though. It's a slow process but the meds have her a little more stable. Makes U think about what is really important in your life.
